Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Holding the tent up with a toothpick

Whitey is hating his job and every night he says "I don't want to go to bed because I don't want to get up in the morning because then I'll have to go to work." I remember being this way and it sucked. I was working at a place as an instructor for 14 MR adults. I was not very good at my jobs because I was too damn green to be able to run a classroom and too damn green to realize that on no planet in no century can I run a classroom. My boss and I did not communicate well despite my honest efforts to understand where she was coming from. This ultimately led to my firing, but after a certain point I ceased caring and ceased trying to explain myself to her because I knew she wasn't going to listen anyways. Somehow I managed to stick it out until I got fired, but I'm not entirely sure how. I think it was because I was going on job interviews and because I had a fun boyfriend to come home to every night. So, I had some things to give me hope for something better.
What I'm trying to say is that I understand the overwhelming desire to walk in and say "kiss my ass, I quit" drop trou and then leave. It's not good to work when you constantly feel like crap and are constantly afraid of what might happen because everyone you work with either wants to leave or is probablly going to get fired and are constantly "dreaming of a life that doesn't so closely resemble hell".

So, as haphazard and awkward as it may sound, at some point we may just say "alright we're turning in our two weeks notice and we're going to Alabama." This whole idea sounds kind of insane to me, but it also kind of sounds like the right thing to do. I don't want to leave behind my clients or the great weather here or my dance classes by the beach, or the job where I can wear khaki shorts and call it "professional work clothing" but I think at least one person in this house will lose it if we don't come up with a plan to get out of here sometime soon. Alabama happens to be our best option for getting out soon because we could easily find a place to stay, people to hang out with, etc.

Let me say that there's a lot of things that still really turn me off about going to Alabama, but I realize that right now there is no ideal situation and that if I want friends near me, I'll have to live with constant 90 degree weather with 90% humidity and a bunch of religious people who will drive me bonkers. Actually, I am starting to realize that there are PLENTY of liberals hiding in Alabama, we're just not a very vocal group. A psychiatrist I used to work with who was very Christian and family centered, one started talking about the ills in the world and how his son "nailed a professor to the wall" for saying things about how the administration was much better now that bush is in power. I would NEVER have suspected that he was politically liberal at all. I think there are people in Alabama who can identify with me, but it's going to take some doing to find them. Anyone want to start a non-political social group for liberals?
While I'm asking questions... Anyone know any IT or social services places that are hiring in northern Alabama (preferably Huntsville)? Anyone want to deal with two ill-tempered house guests and their cute but oatmeal brained dog in exchange for a little rent and groceries? Anyone wanna come to northern Idaho and help us load a u-haul with all our shit? Anyone getting annoyed by me asking imposing questions and whining about Alabama weather yet? ;)

1 comment:

vo0do0chile said...

i've told him, i've reminded him, i've suggested it... he'll give it to you when he's ready. until then, i wash my hands of it.