frustrating.,,,

Okay. I have ADD. Most of you know this. It's not something I hide, and it's definitely something that shapes my daily behaviour. For the most part, the people I know believe in ADD and belive me when I say i have it. NO ONE will believe me when I say I can't do something that most people can do. They try to figure out what the problem is and help me solve it. IF I KNEW, or even had the slightest clue WHY I can't do fucking data entry, there wouldn't be a problem. I am an expert at finding solutions to al the bizarre little problems that come with being me. In this case, all I know is it doesn't matter what I do, all my data entry has tons of errors and no one believes me that it's possible that I can't fix it.
Believe me, if someone said that shooting heroine while naked and standing on my head would make me able to do my job... i would do it. I am at my wit's end and I just want to do a good job.

To add to it, I just read a bunch of posts on an adult ADD forum which sound a lot like mine... all of which end in getting fired, getting on medication (which i am already on), or getting a new job. *sigh*.

Why can't you try a new medication vo0?
I probably should go back to the doctor and therapist, but time is not something we have a lot of in this job and it is not easy to get an hour or two off to go to the doctor... at least not without feeling guilty for abandoning your co-workers... Being one person short in that job SUCKS and pleaces a lot of extra demands on someone else... even if there is time set aside for you to go to the doctor (or whatever). But you're right, vo0 does need to go back to the doc and possibly the therapist.

Why can't you get a new job vo0? A. I like the place where I work because they're generally encouraging and willing to work with me, except for not believing that I can't do better with data entry... And, Like I said, no one believes me on that one--work people, friends, no one.
B. Tell me one job where data entry isn't critically important C. Tell me one job in alabama where they don't try to fit you into a mold. This is the only one I've had that doesn't. Sure, they want me to do quick and accurate data entry, when I'm really not good at that, but they don't expect me to pretend that sex doesn't exist, that people aren't different, that I'm not the goofy, creative, verbose human being that I am, and they don't expect me to do 203982093489348209348 different things that I am not good at. They're asking me to do a few things I'm good at and one I'm DISMAL at. I actually surprised the hell out of myself: It was "a few things I'm good at and two I'm DISMAL at" (the two primary functions of my job), and one day, one of those things just clicked, and I realized I was doing it. I used to run behind on my appointments very frequently and never be able to get caught up. I don't usually run behind anymore, when I do it's usually due to an external force (people showing up late, computers going down, etc.) , and if I do... I'll be caught up within three appts. I pray every day that this happens with data entry... one day it will click and I will be able to do it with speed every time with a MINIMAL NUMBER OF ERRORS every time.... but i think the click is never going to happen. There's nothing that's going to make it click like appts. The appt speed issue clicked when I had to sign everyone up for christmas... I ran behind that whole month. But when the extra stuff went away, I was no longer running behind all the time, whereas before christmas sign-ups, I had been.

Yes, I'm being a whiny bitch and it probably seems like i'm fishing for sympathy. I'm not. Just someone tell me that you believe me when I say I'm trying my best and I've tried almost everything and I just can't do better, even if what you're saying is a lie.